May 9, 2007
Middle of Young & Old
It just isn’t the same anymore
Too much difference with time, it’s getting sore
Hurting but moving on with my life
Just can’t see how it’ll be without my wife
It’s been too long but yet I’m so fresh
Out in the market with no name in the flesh
Thinking to myself there are just too much change
Now you gotta move on alone, it’s so strange
Without a past there’s no future, it’s a must
When can we carry on with the future like the past
Sometimes I wonder how all this life works
I feel it’s better way back, even with no perks
Heck, there’s too much to think for now
Too much to dream for, the question is how?
How do we get to work ourselves up to the top
When we don’t really have much to go on & we stop
It’s a weird coincidence with no money & no time
Yet we have so much of it, just no energy to rhyme
Just do your best, that’s what they all say,
Question is, my best? Sigh, sometimes I kinda go astray
Stress, that’s what some people always express
My life, no stress, & that’s the stress
Kinda wondering to myself, what’s wrong?
I’m just lazy, I’m not weak but not strong
I try to build myself up & it’ll take some time
I don’t have time now, I’m late; got no dime
Need to get out there & just do everything I can
All my worries? push aside, make a plan
I know where I’ve been, doesn’t matter anymore
One thing I know, life doesn’t have a score
But the history is kept, only to those who know
I want my life to big as possible; like a show
Just wait & see, all we want is to be
We just need to be careful of what we don’t see
Sometimes accident is not just a car crash
Accident could be anything; it happens in a flash
Everyday everything’s changing little by little
Messages getting clearer, it’s transmittal
Don’t worry about how it’s gonna be
Just be; the way I see it, life’s ever so free
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October 28, 2006
Belove
I remember your smile,
I remember your laughter,
The way you brush your hair towards your right,
You look so adorable.
How you smile when you cry,
Even cry when you’re tickled,
All the actions that I miss them so much,
Can’t help but reminiscing you.
There are times when you will tickle me,
With your hair all over my face,
How I love the feeling of fragility,
When you’re with me I lose my mind.
It’s like heaven inside,
It’s like heaven no matter what we do,
I can’t see anything more appealing
than just be right by you.
Don’t you remember the dark times in the Highlands?
Wasn’t it fate that made us commute?
There was such weakness, such strong powerful sickness
A feeling of joy, a feeling of surrender, short call it- love
There are times when you will tickle me,
With your fingers you drive me wild
How we used to laugh for hours,
We’re wild but I’m tamed by you, so mild.
It’s so amusing how life turns out to be,
when the music is playing right behind me,
A few seconds ago, we were all in love,
A blink of an eye & there goes all I’ve been thinking of.
I just can’t forget that feeling,
I know it’s how I feel for so long,
Can’t surrender if not willing,
It’s just like these words in this song.
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October 27, 2006
It’s (Charmin’) Alright
Dear honey, it’s been a long time,
& it’s funny, how you’ve gone and seemed fine,
Just thinking, how we used to be,
so happy, well, at least to me;
I know you have a heart for me somewhere,
& I’ve been keeping my heart so true,
I’ve been waiting for a second chance,
& been knowing it won’t be long,
I remember the nights, we spend all awake,
I can hardly remember what we said,
The feeling of you, is oh so strong,
& it’s growing in me,
it’s growing in me,
Oh darling, can’t you see, how it should be,
everything is wrong, but it’ll be alright,
Dear baby, now is not the time, but it’s gonna be fine,
Time will be yours & mine;
The webcam sessions, the kissing in the daylight,
the missing hugs & the missing holds,
I know it’s overdue & that’s why you left,
but honey.. I’m only human..
like you are a woman;
Come back to me
Come hold my hand
Come be my bride
Forever will we stand
As two lovers
With hearts to mend
It’ll be alright
It’ll be alright
My temper’s gone & it gone too late,
& the love I have won’t waste on wait,
I remember what you say “it’s all done & said”,
no matter how it goes, I’ll leave it all to fate,
I love you so
I love you, I do
“From Now On”, “From This Moment On”;
It’ll be alright
It’ll be alright
The webcam sessions, the kissing in the daylight,
the missing hugs & the missing holds,
I know it’s overdue & that’s why you left,
but honey.. I’m only human..
like you are a woman;
I’ve to let you go,
I wasn’t alright,
Oh I love you so,
I’m losing the fight,
Now you’re with a man,
Yes, I heard it right,
You’re both more than a friend,
I guess you’re in love, real tight,
Well, sadly.. you’re happy, without me..
I guess “It’s Alright”…
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October 26, 2006
Nothing Hurtful Left to Say
I’m fine alone after my previous relationship
I’m glad I’m trying to move on
One day, this girl just came into picture
She was appealing to me
I guess I felt a crush & kept calling her
I thought it’s a start of love
But now I know it’s just a “fling”, in her own words,
I guess I expected too much
So after one day, I called on her
So after that day, she just let me go
So what can I say when I just did what I’m told?
I just had to hold on to what I know
She’s no longer interested in me
I’m no longer wanting to try harder
So I stop pursuing in hopes I’m better
& that’s when she messaged me
“Oh now it’s just a rainy day?”
“Oh now you’re better off alone?”
“So didn’t you want me from the start?”
“Then why didn’t you..”
“control yourself then”
*Chorus*
I’m not gonna waste my time on you,
The way I feel was completely out of view
When you gave me silence
While I was trying to..
I needn’t say anything more
Here, let me explain,
I did what I can,
I kept trying when you were out with those guys
What did you expected of me?
I was hurt inside but now I’m stronger;
you were the vice-versa of me then,
I don’t care what you think but I didn’t just play around
You’re afraid of commitment, and now you’re just hurtin’ me
hurtin’ me
Right from the start; you were hurting me
Well, can’t you see? I was begging for you
When I’m no longer needing you,
that’s when you want me too
It’s a typical world of girls
It’s a typical way of life
You just call me when you need me
& now I’m “that way”
Stop playing those mind games on me
To say that I’m ok.. ok.. I was fine ’till u hurt me
Now I am better.. better.. just stop the pain of words
*Chorus*
I’m not gonna waste my time on you,
The way I feel was completely out of view
When you gave me silence
While I was trying to..
I needn’t say anything more
Here I feel terrible for making you feel that way
But now you make it like I don’t have a care or say
Don’t care at all…?
Drop a message, drop me a call; I’ll reply you in a heartbeat
But when I do that, you’re busy for so long
“Don’t care at ALL”?
I don’t need to feel this way
I didn’t need to feel “that way” from the start
I guess now I know you & I feel you
This time; I’m SO disappointed
There’s nothing left to say
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October 18, 2006
Can’t Help The Flow of Feelings
I call you on the phone a while back,
& I can’t seem to put it down,
Even if we didn’t speak,
I just felt like so weak;
Speechless & Confused.
Here I know that it’s probably nothing,
yet how could it be when I’m feeling this way,
Can’t help it that day & I’m weaker by now,
& I just don’t know what to do.
It’s just typically me for falling,
It’s just typically me for failing,
I just can’t help myself,
when you’re all over me (in my head)
& I get so crazy about you (that way)
I’m wondering what I’m thinking,
I’m just thinking what I’m feeling,
Is this just a part of a game?
Cause it’s driving me insane,
& if you’re feeling the same,
I think I need to work it out
I feel like I’m clapping with one hand,
Making no noises with where I stand,
It’s my first time here, like a tourist live near;
Maybe I need to get use to it (with fear)
It’s just typically me for falling,
It’s just typically me for failing,
I just can’t help myself,
when you’re all over me (in my head)
& I get so crazy about you (that way)
Here’s my hand (I think it’s just an interlude)
Here’s my hug (We’re in the bridge now)
Here’s my kiss (We’re getting warmer, it’s like the verse this time)
Here’s my heart (I just don’t want to be stuck in the chorus, not again..)
I’ve been through this before,
It’s like drowning by the shore,
The pool’s not even deep,
Like a small girl I would weep;
I just want my life back (as just another guy)
It’s just typically me for falling,
It’s just typically me for failing,
I just can’t help myself,
when you’re all over me (in my head)
& I get so crazy about you (that way)
I need to mend this situation,
I need to breathe the air into my life,
It’s just a quiet revelation,
Where I fix the situation (with words),
& we follow the flow of feelings.
October 6, 2006
Paths to Serenity
I woke up to your voice
Where are you now?
I hear you cry inside
So loud yet so silent
You cry alone, don’t you?
The laughter is fake
I’m so worried about you
So restless, always awake
Take care of you to take care of me
You were the one who left to be free
Why can’t we make peace? Stop haunting me, inside..
I’m tired of these.. I want to release.. subside..
I remember all we’ve been through
All the happiness I felt was overdue
I remember how we used to fight
Mind to mind, filled with contrite
I need to relax, reflect those attacks, get off that impacts
It’s only you..
You’re not the one who grew..
I’m too strong..
This is so wrong..
It’s all embedded..
Feels lightheaded..
Probably hardheaded
Take care of you to take care of me
You were the one who left to be free
Why can’t we make peace? Stop haunting me, inside..
I’m tired of these.. I want to release.. subside..
And breathe again..
Just wake up from these haunting..
Make up for all of these daunting..
I’m closing the doors in my mind..
Knowing that once my mind opens,
That’s when all is clear
Away with the fear
Breaking away..
Falling freely..
in my mind,
to the paths of Serenity
September 13, 2006
Bad BreakUp
You got your love
It’s not enough for you
You got your truth
It’s just too hurtful to you
You want your security
I couldn’t give you then
Now you have your confidence
I guess you’re happy now
Here I am thinking we were meant to be
But how could we when I’m still stuck in fantasy
You love my world, my heart, my honesty
But now you hate it how it hurts to get to know me
It’s me, not you
I always knew in time
You’ll go, no clue
How it’ll ever be
Somehow I knew
That you’ll be over me
Just never realise
How easily you dumped me
I like how you make it all so perfect
I was convinced ever since we connect
You were the girl I’m gonna be with for real
I guess I never knew that you are an easy steal
How you made my life so happy
But once you left me, it’s sappy
All that I want is all you want
but it had changed after all that haunt
I never blamed you for all that you’ve done to me
In the love, my love, it’s all a messy fantasy
In reality, we both want the clarity
Now you got it because I’m not who you want me to be
All in all, I’m glad for everything in the past
Right now, I’ll move on, just another lass
Felt quite hurt but I know I hurt you more
I’m sorry, I’ll drive off, sorry I slammed the door
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