December 21, 2017

NF – Real

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post, Song Comment tagged , , at 9:57 pm by LynxLee

WOO!

I relate to this. I get so frustrated when people don’t understand the emotional state I get in when situations happen. I’ve been told to keep quiet way too often, I’ve been told to be careful with my words, not to aim so high, not to be too much of a stand out, not to overdo things, every time I want to do something big – I get shrunken back down and told to be humble and calm down. Some people want me to be less this and more that, I never get it. It’s clear – I’ll just avoid you. I’ve changed too many times for no good reason and no good has ever come from it.

An interesting thing I realized this morning as I was listening to Jim Carrey’s commencement speech at Maharishi University of Management – The Need for Acceptance will make you Invisible. At around the third minute (3:00), I just came to a realization that if I were to be thinking in a pessimistic mind, it’s also because of my ego. I mean, throughout college – I work (in mindset) so hard to ensure that I’m not egotistical, cocky, arrogant but I seems like when we set our mind to think “They’re better than me” – it’s also the work of an ego. What a revelation of thinking. I guess it’s a matter of balance.

NF’s tracks has given me a release of mind from the typical angry mind of Eminem, or the other songs posted in this blog with anger. His words aren’t twisted, they’re real life and there’s no curses or any weird lyrics. I mean, I like his words – being real, not weak or too much of a certainty.

I admit, I DO HAVE a problem with people who always thinks they are right. They don’t second guess themselves, no apologies, won’t admit mistakes and always try to control me when they don’t have any empathy or sense of how we feel in that moment. I’m easily influenced and easily flexible; but I mean, I’m very emphatic. I can feel most emotions around me and I navigate my life through as I sense them. Perhaps that’s my curse, and also my gift.

When someone is angry at me, I navigate away from them. When someone is disappointed, I try my level best to ensure I don’t again. I’m very emotional, I do whatever I can to protect my family. I make sure I be the best Son/Brother/Husband/Father/Friend I can. It never make sense to me to just keep quiet and do nothing – i.e. inactive.

Call me crazy; and maybe I need Therapy – but don’t call me dumb, ignorant or fake. I’m just being Real.

I get so frustrated, take a look at what I created
Time is wasting and I ain’t waiting

I’m a doctor with no job
Me, I don’t have no patience
I keep pacing back and forth, I keep racing
You ain’t never been in my book and I got a problem with it, why? ‘Cause you acting like you read my pages
I wreck these stages, real talk, better give me space ’cause I am chasing
Something they told me that I won’t make it, I’m not famous, I’m just Nathan

And I wonder how the world gon’ take this
They might hate it, but you don’t know anything about me, you know that don’t mean I’m changing
‘Cause you know I’m real with it, don’t care if you feeling it
I’m feeling it, you don’t like it then deal with it, and if God ain’t real, real isn’t
You still wonder why I existed, I exist in the world that’s real different
And what you gon’ be when you grow up, Nate? I doubt they will get it

My life is a mess, better watch your step when you step in it
Some of this brain is off limits I’m off in a world that you don’t get ’cause you ain’t ever been in it
In 10 minutes, I still couldn’t explain what’s inside my brain, don’t mess with it
I’ve invested a lot of me inside these lines, I’m just protecting ’em

Everybody wanna hear the real version of life then don’t get so sensitive
When I say something a little bit raw
I jot my thoughts and they call it negative
You wanna know where my heart is?
I stand out ’cause I wear my garbage

I work my hardest and every time I look into the mirror, don’t forget about where I started

Tell me what am I doing here?
If I’m not being real, mmm

Yeah, real music
Yeah
Yo, ya just get in that, you get in that head space, ya know

Somebody get the body bags, working with beats and
Put the MCs in ’em, season ’em, put ’em on a beat with me, then I’m eating ’em
Get away from the table, you rappers ain’t hungry enough, you rappers ain’t hungry like us
They talk about me like I’m here, they talk about you like you was

That nurse came into my room, she told me I’m sick in the head
I’m in hip-hop’s hospital bed with a pad and a pen and a brace on my neck
They told me that I’m never leaving.
Why? I am as ill as it gets
Any rapper that say that they runnin’ the game, I’mma come in they session and cut off they legs, woo

Strap a grenade to my head, pull out the pin
My music is mind blowin’, ain’t nobody do it like I do it
You ain’t never been on my level, I got a problem in the way
To keep ’em talking and acting like everybody gonna get up in a sleep with your eyes open
You wanna know what I noticed?
I look around at my fan base—it ain’t ready
That last album was heavy, that last album was gritty
How you gon’ match that? Just let me
Do what I do best
You’re better off playing Russian roulette
Than comin’ in a booth with me ’cause I get
A little bit intense, I’m like, “Who’s next?”
Y’all better watch it, take a look at where the clock is
It’s my time, this ladder of music that I climbed, I took the machete, the game isn’t ready
Them rappers, they coming up on me, I cut off the ladder, and I told ’em, “bye-bye”
What you lookin’ for? A high-five?
Nice try.

Do not believe everything that you read on the Internet
I do not know who your dentist is, but he should clean out your mouth
Don’t call me a sell-out, that’s something I’ve never been
I’ve been through hell all my life though
But I know where heaven is
Father forgive me, for I am a sinner
But you gave me music as medicine

And nobody want a problem when they get in my zone better leave me be
I’m a mean MC, better feed me rappers or feed me beats, ah, feed me both of ’em
They like “Nate, what’s it like to be famous?”
Um, I’ll let you know if I make it
I wonder what life would be like if I didn’t stick out my neck
200 dollars inside of my bank account, woo, I was living on that
I need some money to pay for my rent, I need some money to pay for my gas
I’m not complaining, I’m just being honest, I promise that I will not beg for respect

I get so frustrated, take a look at what I created
Time is wasting and I ain’t waiting
I’m a doctor with no job
Me, I don’t have no patience
I keep pacing back and forth, I keep racing
You ain’t never been in my book and I got a problem with it, why? ‘Cause you acting like you read my pages
I wreck these stages, real talk, better give me space ’cause I am chasing
Something they told me that I won’t make it, I’m not famous, I’m just Nathan

And I wonder how the world gon’ take this
They might hate it, but you don’t know anything about me, you know that don’t mean I’m changing
‘Cause you know I’m real with it, don’t care if you feeling it
I’m feeling it, you don’t like it then deal with it, and if God ain’t real, real isn’t
You still wonder why I existed, I exist in the world that’s real different
And what you gon’ be when you grow up, Nate? I doubt they will get it

My life is a mess, better watch your step when you step in it
Some of this brain is off limits I’m off in a world that you don’t get ’cause you ain’t ever been in it
In 10 minutes, I still couldn’t explain what’s inside my brain, don’t mess with it
I’ve invested a lot of me inside these lines, I’m just protecting ’em

Everybody wanna hear the real version of life then don’t get so sensitive
When I say something a little bit raw
I jot my thoughts and they call it negative
You wanna know where my heart is?
I stand out ’cause I wear my garbage
I work my hardest and every time I look into the mirror, don’t forget about where I started

Tell me what am I doing?
Tell me what am I doing?
Tell me what am I, what am I doing?
Mmm
Tell me what am I doing?
I say what am I doing?
Tell me what am I doing here?
If I’m not being real, mmm



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August 3, 2017

Sara Bareilles – Bright Lights and Cityscapes

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post tagged , at 9:48 am by LynxLee

Sometimes it takes the hard times to really define you – to reveal the inner you. I’ve gone through a post I’ve made back in 2007 and I think to myself, “Wow, what a dumbass”. The thing is, I really felt that way back then and that was my outlet.. THIS was my outlet. I had a girlfriend that was younger, aggressive and well, wild back then – I honestly did not know what to expect, but I knew one thing.. it was an experience I wouldn’t forget. I knew I never wanted to be like that ever again – so I changed. Even more when I became a husband, a father. Sure, I still sway once in a while – but never get out of that awareness into how you are and how you are treating others.

Few days ago I fell sick, today – with a bunch of chemicals (medicine) in my body. This type of music is what I completely need. The healing type, the ones that slow down your mind and help slowly heal yourself. I need this to recover, and I’ll give time. Sure, I feel awesome when I’m fully healthy and fit and all – but when I’m down and sick; that’s the time to calm down and reflect and think – heal.

She is bright lights and cityscapes
And white lies and cavalcades
And she’ll take all you ever have
But I’m gonna love you
You say maybe it’ll last this time
But I’m gonna love you
You never have to ask
I’m gonna love you
‘Til you start looking back
I’m gonna love you
So right
I wouldn’t need a second chance

Hold my breath and I’ll count to ten
I’m the paper and you’re the pen
You fill me in and you are permanent
And you’ll leave me to dry
I’m the writer and she’s the muse
And the one that you always choose
She will falter and gift her blame
And it starts all over again
Again again again

She is bright lights and cityscapes
And white lies and cavalcades
And she’ll take all you ever have
But I’m gonna love you
You say maybe it’ll last this time
But I’m gonna love you
You never have to ask
I’m gonna love you
‘Til you start looking back
I’m gonna love you
So right
I wouldn’t need a second chance

Shield your eyes from the truth at hand
Tell me why it’ll be good again
All those demons are closing in
And I don’t want you to burn
Nevermind what I said before
I don’t want any less anymore
You are carbon and I am flame
I will rise and you will
Remain

For bright lights and cityscapes
And landslides and masquerades
And she’ll take all you ever have
But I’m gonna love you
You say, “Maybe it’ll last this time”
But I’m gonna love you
You never have to ask
I’m gonna love you
‘Til you start looking back
I wouldn’t need a second chance
I wouldn’t need a second chance
I wouldn’t need a second chance
I wouldn’t need a second chance

August 2, 2017

Alessia Cara – I’m Yours

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video tagged , at 1:51 pm by LynxLee

Yeah, I know.. I know.. I’m annoying, this song is annoying – seriously, have you given thought to how annoying you could be as well labeling me or my posts as annoying too? Here’s the thing, I grown up somewhat an outcast.

I don’t have close friends who would be there for me when I die, but I have a great family and I believe I’ve built a good family for myself as well alongside my wife. It’s been a tough time growing up, but I don’t think I could’ve done any better looking at how my life turned out so far.

I do enjoy a good negative song, and I’m guessing you could include this track as a negative one; because despite it sounding so happy or positive, it really is a song of resistance. The resistance of the emotion of love. I know how it feels like and let me tell you, those girls who think this way – instead of that usual fairytale princessy type, are the ones who will be there for you throughout.

I could be wrong, but never completely and I guess that’s probably the best part.

It’s been a long while since I’ve posted – I haven’t had much sad emotions lately, and not that I’m going through it now.. but I felt like I needed to write something here seeing that it’s been a long time since the last negative post got posted.Some nerve you have
To break up my lonely
And tell me you want me
How dare you march into my heart
Oh how rude of you
To ruin my miserable
And tell me I’m beautiful
Cause I wasn’t looking for love no
Nobody asked you to get me attached to you
In fact you tricked me
And I wasn’t trying to fall in love but boy you pushed me
So all that I’m asking
Is that you handle me with caution
Cause I don’t give myself often
But I guess I’ll try today

I’m mad at you
For being so cute
And changing my mood
And altering my rude
What’s wrong with you
You make me sick for being so perfect
What did I do
What can I do, ohh
And I wasn’t trying
To melt this heart of iron
But the way you hold me makes the old me pass away
And I would be lying
If I said I wasn’t scared to fall again
But if you promise me you’ll catch me
Then it’s okay

[Verse 1]
Some nerve you have
To break up my lonely
And tell me you want me
How dare you march into my heart
Oh how rude of you
To ruin my miserable
And tell me I’m beautiful
Cause I wasn’t looking for love no
Nobody asked you to get me attached to you
In fact you tricked me
And I wasn’t trying to fall in love but boy you pushed me
So all that I’m asking
Is that you handle me with caution
Cause I don’t give myself often
But I guess I’ll try today

[Chorus]
Cause I’ve had my heart
Broken before
And I promised I would never let me hurt anymore
But I tore down my walls
And opened my doors
And made room for one
So baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
But I tore down my walls
And opened my doors
And made room for one
So baby I’m yours

[Verse 2]
I’m mad at you
For being so cute
And changing my mood
And altering my rude
What’s wrong with you
You make me sick for being so perfect
What did I do
What can I do, ohh
And I wasn’t trying
To melt this heart of iron
But the way you hold me makes the old me pass away
And I would be lying
If I said I wasn’t scared to fall again
But if you promise me you’ll catch me
Then it’s okay

[Chorus]
Cause I’ve had my heart
Broken before
And I promised I would never let me hurt anymore
But I tore down my walls
And opened my doors
And made room for one
So baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
But I tore down my walls
And opened my doors
And made room for one
So baby I’m yours

[Bridge]
Oh I hate that I
Spend my days just wasting time day dreaming til I see you again
I’m not used to this
Oh I used to be so used to boys just using me
For you to be you to me
Feels new to me
Cause I usually cheer for the bad side
Love under a bad sign
So it makes me mad I’m
Falling again
Falling again

[Chorus]
But I tore down my walls
And opened my doors
And made room for one
So baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours
But I tore down my walls
And opened my doors
And made room for one
So baby I’m yours
Oh baby I’m yours

September 2, 2016

Evans Blue – Alone Not Lonely

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Song Comment tagged , at 2:01 pm by LynxLee

Days of watching Evanescence haunts me yet again. I’ve never felt this energy, and I like it. I can’t stay back down. Even if I have to do this alone, I will.

tumblr_nl9idgYHrQ1rd67i2o1_500I’m alone, I’m not lonely
I can’t let you in
I feel like choking then holding
You’re breaking the skin
This isn’t hope that I’m holding
No love you can give
Not lonely, I’ve chosen
To bleed here again and again

You’re a book, you’re a photograph
You’re a plaque on the wall or a knickknack haiku
You’re the voice of a guilty man who doesn’t call your name
Until he needs to be lied to
Call me vicious, cast your stones on me
You’re the death of a million men
You’re the face we defend with a patient virtue
You’re the judge of when a life should end
Or when a war begins, you’re such a perfect statue

You wear your necklace like you wear your noose
You fear your comfort anyway you choose
But I’m not like you!

I’m alone, I’m not lonely
I can’t let you in
I feel like choking then holding
You’re breaking the skin
This isn’t hope that I’m holding
No love you can give
Not lonely, I’ve chosen
To bleed here again and again

Now I wake up to the sound of the mourning
I feel infection
Eyes shut to the absent heartbeat
Too late to question
Will you surrender or will you lose
I love the way you blur your vision, I feel your passion
Never give up until the path you’re living finds your intention

Call me evil cause I’m not like you
You fear your comfort anyway you choose
But I’m not like you!

I’m alone, I’m not lonely
I can’t let you in
I feel like choking then holding
You’re breaking the skin
This isn’t hope that I’m holding
No love you can give
Not lonely, I’ve chosen
To bleed here again and again

One man buys the life
That someone controls the night
He died…

I’m alone, I’m not lonely
I can’t let you in
I feel like choking then holding
You’re breaking the skin
This isn’t hope that I’m holding
No love you can give
Not lonely, I’ve chosen
To bleed here again and again

July 4, 2016

Leslie Odom Jr. (Hamilton Musical) – Wait For It

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post tagged , , at 11:19 am by LynxLee

This song has a little anchor in me because growing up, I’ve always felt like I need to wait for whatever I wanted. I’m not the driven kind of person to chase after something, I take my time analysing every single move I need to make in order to slowly take the shot. I do like doing things right away and I don’t really understand why people hesitate, but when it comes to anything involving emotions – I’m willing to wait for it.

I recalled my first job interview when the boss asked me “if I wanted to buy a product, what do I do? I told her that I’ll wait until the product comes into market and queue in line to buy it.” Apparently it was a horrible answer, they wanted an executor – a person who gets the job done. I guess I clearly wasn’t the right person for it. As embarrassing as it may sound, I wasn’t sure if I had what it takes to do something right the first time. I never do, I make my mistakes and try and try and try. (Give, give, give – until I’ve given up)

Sometimes you change so many times in your life, you revert back to your own self and think – what am I doing? My school years were great, I stayed true to myself as I explore how others think. In college, I had the priority and importance to keep satisfying others, befriend them, be one of them, do whatever it takes to blend in. When I started working, that’s when I understood that I’m just this unique person who doesn’t necessary need to always fit in a group. I can be just simply me and move around as I like.

Perhaps there’s more things to learn growing further past my 33 years, but for now I guess I’ll have to “Wait for it”.

09-leslie-odom-jr-hamilton.w1200.h630Love doesn’t discriminate
Between the sinners
And the saints
It takes and it takes and it takes
And we keep loving anyway
We laugh and we cry
And we break
And we make our mistakes
And if there’s a reason I’m by her side
When so many have tried
Then I’m willing to wait for it
I’m willing to wait for it

I am the one thing in life I can control

I am inimitable
I am an original

I’m not falling behind or running late

I’m not standing still
I am lying in wait

I’m willing to wait for it

[BURR]
Theodosia writes me a letter every day
I’m keeping the bed warm while her husband is away
He’s on the British side in Georgia
He’s trying to keep the colonies in line
But he can keep all of Georgia
Theodosia, she’s mine

Love doesn’t discriminate
Between the sinners
And the saints
It takes and it takes and it takes
And we keep loving anyway
We laugh and we cry
And we break
And we make our mistakes
And if there’s a reason I’m by her side
When so many have tried
Then I’m willing to wait for it
I’m willing to wait for it

[BURR]
My grandfather was a fire and brimstone preacher
But there are things that the
Homilies and hymns won’t teach ya
My mother was a genius
My father commanded respect
When they died they left no instructions
Just a legacy to protect

[MEN]
Preacher, preacher
Preacher

Teach ya, teach ya, teach ya

Respect, respect

[WOMEN]
Genius
[BURR/ENSEMBLE]
Death doesn’t discriminate
Between the sinners
And the saints
It takes and it takes and it takes
And we keep living anyway
We rise and we fall
And we break
And we make our mistakes
And if there’s a reason I’m still alive
When everyone who loves me has died
I’m willing to wait for it
I’m willing to wait for it

Wait for it

[ENSEMBLE]
Wait for it
Wait for it
Wait for it

[BURR]
I am the one thing in life I can control

[ENSEMBLE]
Wait for it
Wait for it
Wait for it
Wait for it

[BURR]
I am inimitable
I am an original

[ENSEMBLE]
Wait for it
Wait for it
Wait for it
Wait for it

[BURR]
I’m not falling behind or running late

[ENSEMBLE]
Wait for it
Wait for it
Wait for it
Wait for it

[BURR]
I’m not standing still
I am lying in wait

[ENSEMBLE]
Wait
Wait
Wait

[BURR]
Hamilton faces an endless uphill climb

[ENSEMBLE]
Climb
Climb
Climb

[BURR]
He has something to prove
He has nothing to lose

[ENSEMBLE]
Lose
Lose
Lose
Lose

[BURR]
Hamilton’s pace is relentless
He wastes no time

[ENSEMBLE]
Time
Time
Time

[BURR]
What is it like in his shoes?

Hamilton doesn’t hesitate
He exhibits no restraint
He takes and he takes and he takes
And he keeps winning anyway
He changes the game
He plays and he raises the stakes
And if there’s a reason
He seems to thrive when so few survive, then Goddamnit—

[BURR]
I’m willing to wait for it

I’m willing to wait for it…

Life doesn’t discriminate
Between the sinners and the saints
It takes and it takes and it takes

We rise
We fall

And if there’s a reason I’m still alive
When so many have died
Then I’m willin’ to—
[COMPANY]
I’m willing to wait for it
Wait for it
Wait for…
I’m willing to—

Life doesn’t discriminate
Between the sinners and the saints
It takes and it takes and it takes
And we keep living anyway
We rise and we fall and we break
And we make our mistakes
And if there’s a reason I’m still alive
When so many have died
Then I’m willin’ to—

[BURR]
Wait for it…

Wait for it…
[WOMEN]
Wait for it…

Wait for it…

Wait for it…

Wait for it…

Wait for it…

[MEN]
Wait for it…

Wait for it…

Wait for it…

Wait for it…

Wait…

June 15, 2016

Blue October – Break Ground

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post, Song Comment tagged , at 1:48 pm by LynxLee

“If I could be good enough, then I would be blown away. And I could be their everyone, and I could be there everyday. If I could let go, then I could change the world, but I can’t stop always tearing myself down.”

I don’t think I’ve heard such a more profound lyric in such a nice relaxing tune. Perhaps it’s my own self limiting awareness, but it’s for my own comfort to be humble. I know I am good enough, but I do want to be good enough as well. This summarize how I feel when things bring me down. Ever since I posted Home, I started listening to this band’s album – I love the lyrics, vocals and style.

I feel like I could; Break Ground.

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If I could be good enough, then I would be blown away.
And I could be their everyone, and I could be there everyday.
If I could be good enough, then I could just glow.

If I could let go, then I could change the world, but I can’t stop always tearing myself down.
I can be good enough. Yeah, I will break ground.

Pain comes, lonely, weekend, shoulder, been here before.
Locked up, stepped on, so prominent, so loud, I can’t belong.
Only by my so wide-eyed other side I can’t belong.
Rain comes, priceless, do whatever works best, been here before.

If I could be good enough, then I would be blown away.
And I could be their everyone, and I could be there everyday.
If I could be good enough, then I could just glow.

If I could let go, then I could change the world, but I can’t stop always tearing myself down.
I can be good enough. Yeah, I will break ground.

I focus on the dawn, man, ’cause something doesn’t feel right.
I feel it in my bones like God is throwing stones. Yeah, I’m gonna find the light.
And the weight of what you’re going through is bigger than your will to change.
You have to start somewhere; despair won’t wear wherever again.

If I could be good enough, then I would be blown away.
And I could be their everyone, and I could be there everyday.
If I could be good enough, then I could just glow.

If I could let go, then I could change the world, but I can’t stop always tearing myself down.
I can be good enough. Yeah, I will break ground.

Proud. Calm. Loud. Strong. Heart. Soul. I let go.

If I could let go, then I could change the world, but I can’t stop always tearing myself down.
I can be good enough. Yeah, I will break ground, but I can’t stop always tearing myself down.
I can be good enough. Yeah, I will break ground. Yeah, I will break ground.
I can be good enough. Yeah, I will break ground.

June 13, 2016

Roxette – It Just Happens

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post, Song Comment tagged , at 12:07 am by LynxLee

It’s true, Roxette from Sweden – formed in 1986; just released a new music video on YouTube last month (18th May 2016).

Just like those lyrics, it’s true as well how it’s like to just fall in love. It’s such a beautiful thing, though it’s not really that simple.

All I know is, “Love takes time”; but “Your heart can never wait”. What I know from experience, love makes you do stupid things.

Is it worth the wait, you ask? I guess that’ll depend. Do you like to wait?

…Exactly.

Soulmates, Lovers, Partners, Confidant; call it what you want – Love Just Happens.

My favorite part of the lyrics below:

“Don’t underestimate
Your heart can never wait
And love will always find a way
It just happens and you don’t know what’s going on
If it’s new or if it’s been there since long
If it’s right or wrong”

Roxette-–-It-Just-Happens-mp3-download

It just happens
You don’t know what’s going on
If it’s new or if it’s been there since long
If it’s right or wrong
(Ah) you fall in love
(Ah) you fall in love

(Ah, woo-hoo)
(Ah, woo-hoo)
Oh, it just happens
(Ah, woo-hoo)
Oh, it just happens
(Ah, woo-hoo)

It’s a cabaret, taking over on a quiet lazy backseat day
And it’s so beautiful
Like the sunshine on your balcony
Just yesterday
Don’t underestimate
Your heart is never late
And love will always find a way

It just happens
You don’t know what’s going on
If it’s new or if it’s been there since long
If it’s right or wrong
(Ah) you fall in love
(Ah) you fall in love

You don’t have a say
Just let it slide and close your eyes and watch the passion play
Don’t underestimate
Your heart can never wait
And love will always find a way

(Ah) you fall in love
It just happens
(Ah) you fall in love
Oh, it just happens, oh yeah
(Ah) you fall in love
(Ah) it just happens, happens, oh
You fall in love

Don’t underestimate
Your heart can never wait
And love will always find a way
It just happens and you don’t know what’s going on
If it’s new or if it’s been there since long
If it’s right or wrong

(Ah) you fall in love
Oh, it just happens
(Ah) you fall in love
It just happens, oh
(Ah) you fall in love
Oh, it just happens, happens
(Ah) you fall in love
(Whoa, ah) you fall in love, woo-who
(Ah) you fall in love
(Ah) you fall in love
Oh yeah, it just happens, happens, oh
(Whoa, ah) you fall in love
(Ah) you fall in love

May 29, 2016

Evanescence – Tourniquet

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post tagged , at 7:03 pm by LynxLee

It’s been almost years since I listened to heavy rock bands like Evans Blue, Parabelle and the likes. This track, I’ve stumbled upon a karaoke machine application listening to someone singing this with a soulful feel to it along with pure angst. It’s almost like love and hate all in one. It’s dark music for sure, but sometimes this expression is comforting – particularly when someone makes you wanna scream inside (because you can’t scream for real).

It’s like a silent scream in your head – only you know how loud it could get. Perhaps I’m slightly insane, perhaps I’m normal; but when you get to the point where you start checking on yourself or others almost every few hours (or minutes or seconds) – it gets overwhelming. Looking in the mirror, measuring your heart-rate, your weight, your journal (sanity), your words you typed, your emails, your sms, your conversation, your clothing, your hair, your face, your actions, your reactions, your bank account, your floor, your car, your phone – I mean; you get my point.

You ran through that maze, but you didn’t really want to. You went to visit that friend/person, but you didn’t really want to. You did everything right, but in time – it turns out wrong. You mean what you said and did at that moment in time, but when situations changed – you knew it was what you meant then, but not anymore now. Dream and Desire – Warning and Withdrawals. Come and Go, Pick and Let Go. It’s not all simple and direct, isn’t it? You’re attractive and not up to your own standards at the same time.

Why/How do we keep doing this? Sometimes letting it all go and going for a swim or a run, or spending some time with your friends or family may be all you could rely on. To avoid being hurt or disappointed, you just stop doing what it is you do. Some point in time you wonder if anyone cares?! I mean, really does.

Show of hands – how many people you know would be there for you (and be sincerely honest and caringly love you) no matter what? Is that realistic?

It’s better detach from everything sometimes and just – just – BE. Maybe that’s how it feels like when you’re stuck for 3 months without anything to hold on to – you’d need to fully depend on yourself. Perhaps that’s normal – but I don’t believe that.

My God, I need help. Cleanse me. I feel like I’m somewhat numb from everything overwhelming. Perhaps I’ve asked for this, but certainly I can’t handle it alone.

But at the same time, I don’t really want your company. Not anymore.

Maybe.

Reference: http://genius.com/Evanescence-tourniquet-lyrics

hqdefault (1)Do you remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me?
I’m dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

[Verse 1]
I tried to kill my pain
But only brought more
So much more
I lay dying
And I’m pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I’m dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

[Chorus]
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation [x2]

[Verse 2]
Do you remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me?
I’m dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

[Chorus]
{Screams: I WANT TO DIE!!!}
[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ
Tourniquet
My suicide

[Outro]
(Return to me salvation) [x2]

May 26, 2016

Kris Allen ft Pat Monahan – The Truth

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video tagged , , at 3:27 pm by LynxLee

hqdefaultTrying to be perfect
Trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it’s easier than telling the truth

Lying next to you
Wishing I could disappear
Let you fall asleep
And vanish out into thin air

It’s the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don’t see it
It’s the avalanche that looms above our heads
And we don’t believe it

Trying to be perfect
Trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it’s easier than telling the truth

I still keep your photographs
I remember how we used to laugh
I can keep on losing sleep
If you’re okay with being torn in half

It’s the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don’t see it
It’s the avalanche that looms above our heads
And we don’t believe it

Trying to be perfect
Trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it’s easier than telling the truth

Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning
And let the rain come in
Stop pretending that it’s not ending
And let the end begin, oh yeah…

Trying to be perfect
Trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now, yeah
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it’s easier than telling the truth
It’s easier than telling the truth

May 24, 2016

Tori Kelly ft. Big Sean – Hollow

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post, Song Comment tagged , , at 6:02 pm by LynxLee

I’m in love! with Tori Kelly. I honestly feel that she has got to be one of the most underrated artist so far. I remember the first track I felt in love with was “Should’ve Been Us” (I mean, 27 million views can’t go wrong) – but for now I’m posting up Tori Kelly and Big Sean. I love her album, a lot of tracks with incredible vocals and meaningful lyrics. Dear No One, I Was Made For Loving You, Unbreakable Smile, All In My Head – perhaps it appeals to my memories, but it feels vaguely familiar indeed.

According to her,

“Hollow,” for me, is very directly connected to me and my faith – it’s like my love song to God. I tried to fill that hole with a bunch of only things, and I just know that Jesus is the only one that can fill it.

Perhaps that’s how I feel sometimes, I’m detached from prayer and the faith that I’m protected and loved. Then again, doesn’t everybody?
Like, I used to have visitors here. Now I’ll be surprised if anyone mentioned that I post anything here.

*Hello!*

*echos-back* – yep, Hollow.

TKELLY_Hollow-single-cover_SN3[Chorus: Tori Kelly]
So hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty and only your love can fill up my cup
Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh
Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh

[Verse 3: Big Sean]
Look, I know you’ve been up at night
Tryna sleep with one eye open
Cryin’ out enough tears, you could fill up the Atlantic Ocean
No fun bein’ home alone, we learn this from Macaulay Culkin
So I’m just waitin’ on you
I’ve been callin’, pick me up
I know you need to pick me up
I need you to come grip me up, you my baby girl no sippy cup
Cup half empty or half full, I mean neither way just come and fill me up
Let’s take it back to the old days, head downtown and light the city up
On the late-late-late night, just pick a date then it’s date night
Karaoke, no stage fright
Girl, you was made for the stage light
Cause you got that phenomenal, most honorable
Got me fallin’, domino
Take you home to mama though, you know


[Verse 1: Tori Kelly]
I don’t wanna be the last man standing
I don’t wanna be the lonely one
Picking petals when the party’s over
No, it’s not any fun[Pre-Chorus: Tori Kelly]
Cause I’m fragile
And you know this

[Chorus: Tori Kelly]
So hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty and only your love can fill up my cup
Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh
Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh

[Verse 2: Tori Kelly]
I don’t wanna be the first one folding
I don’t wanna be the joker heart
Tell me, darling, will you understand me?
And not show me your cards?

[Pre-Chorus: Tori Kelly]
Cause I’m paper-thin
And you, you make me whole again

[Chorus: Tori Kelly]
So hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty and only your love can fill up my cup
Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh
Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh

[Verse 3: Big Sean]
Look, I know you’ve been up at night
Tryna sleep with one eye open
Cryin’ out enough tears, you could fill up the Atlantic Ocean
No fun bein’ home alone, we learn this from Macaulay Culkin
So I’m just waitin’ on you
I’ve been callin’, pick me up
I know you need to pick me up
I need you to come grip me up, you my baby girl no sippy cup
Cup half empty or half full, I mean neither way just come and fill me up
Let’s take it back to the old days, head downtown and light the city up
On the late-late-late night, just pick a date then it’s date night
Karaoke, no stage fright
Girl, you was made for the stage light
Cause you got that phenomenal, most honorable
Got me fallin’, domino
Take you home to mama though, you know

[Chorus: Tori Kelly]
And hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty, cause only your love can fill up my cup
So hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty and only your love can fill up my cup
Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh
Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh
Cause I’m hollow (yeah)
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh (oh yeah)
Cause I’m hollow (I’m hollow)
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh

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