August 2, 2007

Mariah Carey – I Wish You Knew

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post, Song Comment tagged , at 11:36 pm by LynxLee

I love this song to bits. Her voice is a strange familiarity to a girl that was close to me in the past. I’m conveying a message through this blog now. It seems like I don’t need to do that since I practically don’t have a secret in my life anymore anyway.

Last week, I had a blast with Chris & Shazaly (two of my Putra Height basketball buddies) at the McD-FlyFM event. The night started with 8pm-12pm of various random games. I took part in the games 5 times in a row.. Well, I know it seems bad, but all I wanted was a t-shirt from them. Crazy games like a girl pretending to be a shower & we have to pretend showering; or dance with the music in the background or as simple as “lat ta li lat” (hand games kinda like Rock, Scissors & Paper). Though some games were kinda unfair, as the crowd are made of guys & the girls always, ALWAYS gets the first prize (t-shirt); it was still awesome! My favourite DJ was the host emcee, Jules. She was Off The Hook!! =P

Throughout the whole 4 hours, they’d pick 3 people from the boxes to be a part of the 12 hour challenge to win cash. The first prize was RM5000, second RM2000 & third RM1000. Two of my friends got picked in the games & I had the choice to go back or stay with them. I stayed with them for the whole 12 hours. I enjoyed myself as they undergo grueling games every hour with every person getting eliminated one by one. It was awesome, I felt like they just need a cameraman to make the event even way cooler.

After the whole 12 hours, we actually made some friends & had a whole lot of fun. Even though my friends did not win, they almost did & our new friends of ours got the top three positions. I actually enjoyed watching them get the big bucks! I didn’t go back empty handed, I got two t-shirts, an armband (FlyFM) & mainly a picture taken with Jules! Yeah.. now that’s priceless to me.

After the whole event, I had classes (linux training) the whole weekday. I had great basketball times with some new friends in the California Fitness gym in Mid Valley after my classes. Yesterday night, I went out with a close friend of mine to watch “The Simpsons“. Awesome show! Great 2D effects & is very very funny. I just felt like the show’s kinda short as it has only one simple storyline.. but still, amazing effort.

Well.. ok, the person whom I went out with was not a close friend.. she’s my first ex-girlfriend. It was fun & fine.. until the end.. I guess I must’ve still think that we have feelings for each other or something. It was kinda dumb of me.. Talking a bit too much. I felt like she’s still in love with her last ex (they just broke up a few weeks ago). Yikes, I didn’t know what I was thinking.. Was I trying to get her back? Was I falling in love with her all over again? This song kinda explains it.. but sadly, I’ve to face reality.. I’m not the person she fell in love with anymore. I can see that.. I can feel that.. but it’s ok.. As long as she’s happy.

Next!! I’m kinda in a dilemma here.. feels very tired each & everyday with more sadness & loneliness surrounding me. It’s funny, I’m very happy being single now, but I still feel this void & everything since the last time I found out my ex got single. Am I just thinking too much? Feeling too much? I think I’m just too much. I gotta keep a hold on myself. Pretty unstable right now. Just want to be the usual guy again. As a matter of fact, I’m not even enjoying my basketball, studies & being with my family anymore.. I wonder what’s wrong? Maybe it’s just temporal. I gotta get myself back together. It’s killing me deep inside..

All in all, I may appear fine to many people who see me smiling & everything (which I was for a month now) but for some reason.. these past few days has been sadness & madness (head throbbing) all together. I find myself not wanting to wake up from sleep or cranky inside while I smile at whatever situation I’m in. It’s just not me. It’s just not right…

I just ended a phone call with a good friend of mine (Jessica; girl, obviously). She helped me stabilize my thoughts. I guess I feel much better now. Kinda like a reality check. Although I’m a bit messed up now, but I feel like a little kick in the right direction is just what I needed (not there or that, pleazze).

I know this is just a bunch of rant & this has nothing to do with Mariah Carey, but hey;
I Wish You Knew…

Dan


[spoken]
I don’t know if anybody else outside there tonight
Who knows what it feels like
To want somebody so bad
That nothing and nobody
Can ever seem to fill that void
That is the situation that I’m talking about right now
And if you feel me
Sing the song with me
Come on

Honestly, I know it’s silly of me
To want you so badly
But keep it concealed
See my inferiority complex kicks in
And the words escape me
And I’m paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes

And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven’t got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you, baby


[intro]
I just wish you knew
How much I still love you

I’ve got to see you
Wherever you are
And I’ve got to be there
I am wishing on stars
I’ve got to reveal what’s inside of my heart
But the words escape me
And I’m paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes

[chorus]
And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven’t got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you, baby

Honestly, I know it’s silly of me
To want you so badly
But keep it concealed
See my inferiority complex kicks in
And the words escape me
And I’m paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes

[chorus]
And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven’t got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you, baby

[spoken]
I don’t know if anybody else outside there tonight
Who knows what it feels like
To want somebody so bad
That nothing and nobody
Can ever seem to fill that void
That is the situation that I’m talking about right now
And if you feel me
Sing the song with me
Come on

[chorus]
And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven’t got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you, baby

[chorus]
And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven’t got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you, baby

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June 26, 2007

Elated Bluish Green Message

Posted in Personal Lyrics, Personal Post tagged at 2:01 am by LynxLee

It’s been ages since the last time that I saw you,
I’ll have to admit that I miss you, it’s true,
Year after year and it always feels the same,
Empty inside, but excited when I hear your name,

You may think I’m happy moving on like this,
With so much misery, masked by the bliss,
Even though I know that we’ve broken the chain,
Every single day I’m wishing, hoping to see you again,

We were together, said forever, until the ends,
Never matter if we were or weren’t simply just friends,
The Magic Eight Ball‘s results were true; it may be,
But until the end of my life, I’ll love you, even on bended knee,

Just praying daily that you’re happy is all that matters to me,
I know how it used to be like, compared to now, we wouldn’t agree,
Now you’re working so patiently, having the future that you see,
While I’m smiling, laughing at the sign that we carved on the tree,

The mark’s still there; until it’s time, it’ll go away,
But until that day, I’ll be here waiting, wishing and pray,
No I won’t pursue you, it’s an obvious reason why,
You’re in love fully, be happy, didn’t see you cry,

You’ve asked me before, the question’s answer remains true;
Yes, the sky, indeed, is always blue,
How I’m clouded by the weather in the past, I’ll never know,
But no matter how it goes in life, that sign I bought you’ll still glow,

Even my puzzle that you bought me, it still brightens my night,
I’ll still express myself now, even if it doesn’t seem right,
I have a heavy heart, can’t explain and you won’t understand,
Perhaps you do, doesn’t matter; not as we planned,

Didn’t really work, having you as my wife,
Yet I really do wish to see you in another life,
Like Amanda Perez’s lyrics, “I Pray”, I hope it to be,
Hope is all I can do, to a tolerable degree,

I know I’ve hurt you bad before & now I don’t deserve you,
It’s Karma, whatever negative I’ve been through says it’s true,
You don’t believe it, I know, but the universe’s law has no warning letter,
I deserved it, but you, you; I know you deserved better,

I’m glad you’re slimmer, it shows that you’re elated,
That’s joyful & jovial, in case the meaning’s not related,
I’m slimmer & weaker now, and it’s all your fault,
Just kidding, no offence, don’t screech your reading to a halt;

I guess I feel alright, but it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in, it’s all over me~

Yes, I’ve noticed, every 4 In The Morning when I’m free; even if it may not be about me,
I just love the lyrics that presents itself in my personal blog,
It expresses every part of my life & more largely about my love fog,

I’m home & happy, it’s time for my career;
No, no more girls, I have some kind of fear,
Thanks for everything even if you didn’t say a word,
Because in my past, my mind, I’m very happy with what I’ve heard,

    Let all bitterness, indignation,
    wrath, resentment, quarrelling
    & slander be banished from u.
    (Ephesians 4:31)

May the Lord bless u.
Take Care.

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May 14, 2007

Gwen Stefani – 4 in The Morning

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post, Song Comment tagged , at 12:55 pm by LynxLee

Gwen Stefani is gorgeous. This song has a strange familiar feel to many other songs. This song is so unexpected, so fresh. I think this song is about insecurity, about this person wanting more from his/her significant other.

Here’s my reply to this song: –

As for my life now, I’ve just realized all that I have ever done, or give & give is just a bunch of waste. Nothing last forever. It’s like; I gave all my love, all my heart, all my time & money, I give all that I can including worry & care.

All that I keep getting is heartbreak & complications. The worst of all is that once a relationship is over, there’s nothing you can do about it anymore. I’m being blamed for almost every single thing in her life & what can I do to make things right? Only manage my own life, that’s all.

It’s funny, we give all the trust & confidence in someone, & he/she let us down so greatly. In turn, he/she drops the message saying that we are the one who disappoint him/her. Break ups.. It’s such a great waste. *shakes head*

I guess too much of anything is bad enough.

Dan

I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight

I guess I feel alright , but it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in, it’s all over me~

Wakin up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts
when I think,
when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I’m lying here in the dark
Watchin you sleep, it hurts a lot

[Bridge]
And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
Nothing less ’cause you know I give you all of me

[Chorus]
I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight

What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I’m safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down

It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love for me
We can’t escape the love
Give me everything that you have

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

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January 24, 2007

Amanda Perez – I Pray

Posted in Dedication, Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post, Song Comment tagged , at 12:01 am by LynxLee

Eternal Love. That’s what I know from the very sound of the song. I love it. Amanda Perez always captures the pain in a love very well. In this song, it’s about loving someone so much that when you die, you will want to see that person again. Just to feel complete. Just for the very feel of it that even after death, you want to remember all the good times. All the great times. Even after death, praying that you & the loved one be reunited in another life.

I mean, I really can’t say what song is a true love song… but this song has captured my heart the very moment it was played in the radio. Not much people knew about it. I remember burning the song for my first girlfriend last time & she didn’t appreciated it until the relationship is over. (Maybe not “didn’t appreciate”, but life just goes so fast to reflect on what’s important to us, sometimes.) This song is dedicated to her. No need to name her. 😛

Even after so many years, I can honestly say that this is one love song that isn’t that popular, but I just completely love it. Just listening to this again.. It feels rather, teary.

Need I express more? Read the lyrics & hear the music. You’ll love it. If you don’t, you’re heartless. If you don’t think it’s a good love song & a complete over-do for a song, just wait.. you’ll fall in love soon enough. 😉

Dan

With the kinda love you plant inside,
Specially with a heart so empty as mine.
All your soft tenderness is the one thing that I don’t wanna miss.

I pray,
When it’s time for me to say goodbye
I’ll never forget looking in your eyes,
I pray,
That I feel your touch
And that God doesn’t forget our love,
I pray,
When I close my eyes,
I can still see visions of you on my mind.
I pray,
That I see you in another life,
I pray that you still by my side.
Oh I pray.

I hate that we live to die,
But only God knows why (I pray)
We all have a purpose,
And to see you again it’ll be worth it.

12/02/07 updated: music video is replaced with original music video

[Talking:]
You know with each day that passes by, I pray to god I’ll never forget who you are.
You mean everything to me.
I love you

Ooooh Ooooh
Ooh I pray

You were in my dream
Before I even knew that there was a you and me,
Now I can’t wait to see your smile,
When I wake up each day,
It makes it worth while
With the kinda love you plant inside,
Specially with a heart so empty as mine.
All your soft tenderness is the one thing that I don’t wanna miss.

[Chorus:]
I pray,
When it’s time for me to say goodbye
I’ll never forget looking in your eyes,
I pray,
That I feel your touch
And that God doesn’t forget our love,
I pray,
When I close my eyes,
I can still see visions of you on my mind.
I pray,
That I see you in another life,
I pray that you still by my side.
Oh I pray.

Everything that you give to me,
Only comes in a fantasy,
It seems like life goes by so fast,
But in this time I wanna make it last. (I pray)
I hate that we live to die,
But only God knows why (I pray)
We all have a purpose,
And to see you again it’ll be worth it.

[Chorus]

[Slow rap:]
I wish that I could stop time,
I wish that I could rewind,
To the very beginning of every second of my life.
To ask God on my hands and knees,
To never let me forget all my special memories.
See I’m only promised today,
And if it’s my time to go,
I don’t want the love of my life to ever fade away,
So one last time
Let me open my eyes.
To see what my life used to be like.
Oh God.

[Chorus]

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October 5, 2006

Hinder – Lips of An Angel

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Song Comment tagged , , at 10:38 pm by LynxLee

The first time I heard this song, I remembered my ex.. What they have to go through with me & how it hurts to be this way. The love between love. It’s hard. Hinder gives the edgy song a love feeling with these lyrics. I like the part “It’s really good to hear your voice saying my name”. Honestly, I remember how I used to like her calling my chinese name. It’s something like that. Good feeling.. while it lasted… memories.. Lips of an angel.. The voice.. Yeah.. Also, check out the video! With the animation of Final Fantasy characters. Good direction for the vid in relation to the song. Awesome!

“It’s really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel”
“honey why you calling me so late?”

honey why you calling me so late?
It’s kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can’t be too loud
Well, my girl’s in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It’s really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It’s funny that you’re calling me tonight
And yes I’ve dreamt of you too
And does he know you’re talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don’t think she has a clue

Well my girl’s in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It’s really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It’s really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
honey why you calling me so late?