March 23, 2009
Hey There?
A little scribbling in the midnight hour,
..one person in mind…
“Hey there, you know I don’t pretend,
you know I hate to lie;
I know, I did all that I can,
I answered all the questions why;I heard you in the day,
I heard you in the night;
I got home just to see,
there’s no one in my sight;It’s time to sleep;
It’s time to wake again;
We’re born to meet;
We’re born to be apart, refrain;You feel the same way now,
maybe you feel much better,
It hurts someway somehow,
I know we can do better,I can’t make up my mind,
I’ve made up my mind to stay;
I can’t seem to hold on,
Our differences made me sway;So wrong, So right,
I do not understand;
How it all began,
and how (why?) it all will end…”
“The greatest mistake you can make in
life is to be continually fearing
you will make one.”
– Elbert Hubbard
December 17, 2008
Not Okay
Reminiscing, reminiscing about the life we love to have
Just thinking about the days we used to laugh
Isn’t it a wonder, why, these days we seem to grumble
Whether what we found is just a state when we tumble
Or is it for a long while? Is it a short spark?
I want to see that smile. Maybe a walk in the park?
It’s only natural. It’s only natural when we do the things we do
Hear me, I play no fool. I play no games when I start feeling blue
I hear your words and I understand, there’s no need to pretend
But when you’re telling me it’s not okay, I just don’t comprehend
So here I stand, conflicted by your actions and doing what I can
Knowing that it’ll get better and I’ll start to follow the plan
It’s not warm when you’re cold inside
It’s not cool when you’re hot tonight
No point liking what you hate to protect
I guess it always has to be perfect
December 7, 2008
Lost With You
It’s late and you’re on my mind,
It’s early and you’re always in my head,
I can’t help, but to think of you,
in the middle of the day,
Is there more to say, when everything seems good to me,
Is there more to do,
while every time I’m feeling the way I do,
Nothing’s ever been wrong.
It’s just the way it felt when we were dating,
Always seems to be so right.. even when it’s wrong..
Another day passes on so fast,
Just a simple day of sleeping,
Holding on and nothing seems to last,
Every chance it’s slipping…
to a deeper state of mind.
It’s like a waterfall, it’s calming and it’s beautiful,
Yet the rush is in my heart,
It’s like the simple rivers, always so calm and true,
flowing right from the start,
It’s right, it’s wrong,
No matter what matters, inside,
It’s always how it seems to be,
You’re right, you’re wrong,
It doesn’t seem to matter.. to me..
Cause in the end, it feels so wrong..
to be fighting..
to be arguing..
like we used to do.
It’s natural..
The way it seems to be, when both hearts merge like this.
It’s possible..
If anything could seem so complicated;
but never isolated..
until you’re gone…
until you’re not by my side..
Only by my sight..
So take this moment and be thankful for..
everything we have.
So sit down, and listen to the voice inside..
saying “Everything’s alright..”
everything’s just right..
inside..
December 4, 2008
Never Too Far.. In Love
Showers of whispers, Snowing of sadness,
Blank stares, missing pages of books that you care for,
Places to go to, places you stay at,
Knowing the further you go,
The more fear you smell.
All of these words, don’t come that easily,
All of your ways are always the same,
Hear me, I pray that things will get better,
Hold me, I’d say, as I hold you tighter,
Morning, the daylight is bright as it’s afternoon,
Waiting for sun down, until the flowers’ bloom,
The eagle gliding in the sky, will always be high above,
The fishes under the sea, will always be there,
There’s no way to explain how I’m feeling,
There’s no way, to even compare,
This is my life and my lifestyle remains the same,
You shall be here, awaiting for me.. to come home..
Come home..
Come home, to the place that you love.
Come back to the state you were in, the way it was before..
Your enthusiasm, is one that I love in you..
Your heart, and you seem human; that matters to me..
So hear me I say, these words don’t come easy.
So know this, I pray; we’ll get much better.
Heaven’s behind us, heaven’s in front too.
No matter how it goes, we’ll never be too far…
away..
We’ll never be too far.. In Love..
October 7, 2008
Sorry, God…
Oh dear God, why must I falter so?
To be so sick with love, yet happy
Happy house is where we’re always were, always love to be
Can’t understand why I’m lost in the place I call Home
Lost in the emotions until I start to flee
Away to a paradise where only two can be
Covered in a sheet, turning off the light
The chills around while heat of passion ignite
Have you any idea why you are so?
As I know, all it is, is just illusions
Having no idea why, yet questions born
Answers to be seek and sold by charm
See, even in perfection, there is a metaphor
A certain way to see it to fulfill our needs
To find a piece to fit the jigsaw
That takes patience and heart to the core
A stage appears with no one on it
Two lonely rabbits bouncing through
One starts to dance and another acts cool
Eventually both under the same spotlight
Looking up the white ceiling, or gray sky
A bridge is steady, another one rigid
Surrounded by green trees and blue river
The color of red brings the blue feeling of quiver
How did we meet? Have we met? This you ask
But why question a good sign? we must?
Must we try to figure out the origin?
Have we no faith to see through what’s not seen?
Climb towards the summit is the goal
Driving up, follow the speed you’re told
Just to see our partner’s energy consumed
Even the simplest action are assumed
Oh dear God, I understand it now
It takes so long to comprehend why and how
To rest and to sleep, that’s the solution
Eventually when we awake, no more pollution
May 5, 2008
What’s Not Mine
In the dark, waiting for a light to appear.
Extremely focused on a single spot in mind.
Can’t see or understand the moment.
Having nothing to desire, yet more to set on fire.
Left with just a simple “Bye”
Replied a simple “Sigh”
That is not for me, not for me, I’d say
With heat burning our eyes, delusion applies.
Where rain comes down, a happy face frowns
Yet a frowning face smiles
So peaceful, yet like troubled waters
Seem artistic with the paint of black
In a market of people,
everything is sold off
Seems like no one is buying
So keep the hunger it will be
I’m filled with the mixed signals
I’m lost without a count
Like swimming without an island
I’ve got no land to crawl on
If the egyption calculations were right
There’s many ways to build a boat
If a mere calculations were tampered
The clothes of ours will soak
Have no idea or path,
No reason to not breathe
So drive on we all shall
Keep going to that place you hope to be
With every smile that we see,
Joy is what we feel
But what lies in the mind could it be
Nothing that moves stand still
If we desire ordinary,
Much more we have in mind
Though to accept the simple findings
All we have to do is rewind
Caves are a great place to hide out
There’s no other place for shelter
When there is rain and thunder
We hide our hearts under the cover
If a stare could be piercing,
It hurts deep into the soul,
Many more stares are hurting,
The stares later seems cold
We get lost when we’re going
But we’re found when we’re there
When we’re here, we desire some place else
So stay constant the speed we shall
Even in troubled waters,
The lies aren’t as true
But in peaceful waters,
The lies seems beautiful
Why do we even want to try?
When we don’t need to try so hard
It seems it’s better to leave it alone
Cause the chills feels to the bone
The night was so cold
When the messages reach my eyes
With no surprise it’s obvious
The later shorts are “bye”s
Like a painter paints a painting
We construct our words to perfection
With every words having no idea
No reason to find the definition
So I hear silence today
When it’s awkward to seek
Even with music in my mind
The voice makes me weak
Couldn’t look anymore
The more I see The more it hurts
To know that it’s not there
“No expressions” is the fare
I won’t take that trip anymore
The places won’t change
But the transport could be over
I think again, “Why Bother?”
Am I confused or am I crazy?
To be writing these in such a way?
The noise in my head has died
Here’s a hint that I will provide
I’m silenced by your silence.
I guess I’m on the wrong path.
I’ll re-direct my direction.
Even if there’s no laugh.
January 29, 2008
It Explains
It’s deep the way I feel for you,
Even just shallow the waters seemed to be,
Sometimes we quiver in our shoes,
Just wishing there’s more to me,
Can’t find the place where you are,
But wanting that you’d be there,
Knowing no matter near or far,
Whatever I’ve been through, you’d care,
It’s not enough just saying, “I miss you”,
It’s never enough the simple sight of you,
By hearing your voice, so different,
You just know it’s a given,
With this token of gratitude I give you,
A little piece of what I could supply,
Release the question of “Why?”,
and keep it at heart without a cry,
A tear will mean so much to me,
A smile will mean more,
Your eyes can show your desire,
You, as a soul, could show the fire,
With no meaning at all aside,
The definition is far and wide,
Don’t want to explain anymore,
There’s nothing more in store.
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November 14, 2007
I Wanna Be in Love
I know how different this whole world is now
If I could do it all over again, you know I’d do you differently, some how
I wanna be in love
I wanna be in love
I wanna be the one to say those words to you
I want you to hold my hand
Do everything we plan
I’ll help you through every thing
Even as simple as slipping the ring
It’s been a year since I remember the feeling of love
I had a short feeling as it pass me by, a drop’s worth
The same the way everything seems to be
It seems it’s always one person to blame; me
Everyday of the nights everything pass by so fast
With so much worries of my life, I leave it all; past
The simple days were back when I love you so much
It’s automatic; the things we do, plans & such
I wanna be in love
I wanna be in love
I wanna be the one to say those words to you
The stare with a smile
The hug for a while
The words that are elated
Everything that you waited, for
If you see me again; please do know this
I miss you, yeah and I long for that last kiss
The last kiss that we promised that will end our live in pride
Just like the first one when we started, the nice feeling inside
I know I had messed up when you’re messed up
Hear me now, I tell the truth; I wish I had shut up
You did wrong, so did I; that just ain’t the way to go
it was a drama after a comedy, a seriously bad show
No use going back & I’m about that before
Just wanna make it clear, I’m not trying to make a war
I promise in a year to be the guy that I love, highest regard
& the person that you’ll love even when times are hard
I know that’s what I want and it’s obvious by this time
It’s you from the start, & I’m not gonna let this drop and whine
If it wasn’t meant to be; a second chance is all I need
Whatever you decide, I’m good; it’s agreed
At least thanks that you read, hear my plead; proceed
I wanna be in love
I wanna be in love
I wanna be the one to say those words to you
The feeling that you’re dealing, with
No concealing, all revealing
The healing that we’re sealing
So appealing to the ceiling
Just a message to God; this is how I feel about you
I’ve been bad, gone against the rules; it’s sad, but true
I’m so sorry there, but if I lost you, once is enough
But all I can do now is pray that in the future, I’ll be tough
I wanna be in love, that’s enough.
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October 28, 2007
Negative
I’ve been trying to stay strong
But everything I do seems wrong
Just got good news right in the morn
When darkness surrounds, my heart gets torn
Here behind this smiling face is a lie
Though my character is truth, I don’t know why
A mask of bliss just keeps me in camouflage inside
Looking back my mistakes were high and wide
Looking forward, I see nothing but fear
Staying in the present seems so tiring here
Talks on motivation helps like a friend’s share
It last for a while then ends without a care
Sometimes life just seems to slip up and slip out
Even the simple word of “sleep” needs to be aloud
Can’t bother to find the person motionless
At this point in time, everything I do seem pointless.
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June 26, 2007
Elated Bluish Green Message
It’s been ages since the last time that I saw you,
I’ll have to admit that I miss you, it’s true,
Year after year and it always feels the same,
Empty inside, but excited when I hear your name,
You may think I’m happy moving on like this,
With so much misery, masked by the bliss,
Even though I know that we’ve broken the chain,
Every single day I’m wishing, hoping to see you again,
We were together, said forever, until the ends,
Never matter if we were or weren’t simply just friends,
The Magic Eight Ball‘s results were true; it may be,
But until the end of my life, I’ll love you, even on bended knee,
Just praying daily that you’re happy is all that matters to me,
I know how it used to be like, compared to now, we wouldn’t agree,
Now you’re working so patiently, having the future that you see,
While I’m smiling, laughing at the sign that we carved on the tree,
The mark’s still there; until it’s time, it’ll go away,
But until that day, I’ll be here waiting, wishing and pray,
No I won’t pursue you, it’s an obvious reason why,
You’re in love fully, be happy, didn’t see you cry,
You’ve asked me before, the question’s answer remains true;
Yes, the sky, indeed, is always blue,
How I’m clouded by the weather in the past, I’ll never know,
But no matter how it goes in life, that sign I bought you’ll still glow,
Even my puzzle that you bought me, it still brightens my night,
I’ll still express myself now, even if it doesn’t seem right,
I have a heavy heart, can’t explain and you won’t understand,
Perhaps you do, doesn’t matter; not as we planned,
Didn’t really work, having you as my wife,
Yet I really do wish to see you in another life,
Like Amanda Perez’s lyrics, “I Pray”, I hope it to be,
Hope is all I can do, to a tolerable degree,
I know I’ve hurt you bad before & now I don’t deserve you,
It’s Karma, whatever negative I’ve been through says it’s true,
You don’t believe it, I know, but the universe’s law has no warning letter,
I deserved it, but you, you; I know you deserved better,
I’m glad you’re slimmer, it shows that you’re elated,
That’s joyful & jovial, in case the meaning’s not related,
I’m slimmer & weaker now, and it’s all your fault,
Just kidding, no offence, don’t screech your reading to a halt;
I guess I feel alright, but it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in, it’s all over me~
Yes, I’ve noticed, every 4 In The Morning when I’m free; even if it may not be about me,
I just love the lyrics that presents itself in my personal blog,
It expresses every part of my life & more largely about my love fog,
I’m home & happy, it’s time for my career;
No, no more girls, I have some kind of fear,
Thanks for everything even if you didn’t say a word,
Because in my past, my mind, I’m very happy with what I’ve heard,
Let all bitterness, indignation,
wrath, resentment, quarrelling
& slander be banished from u.
(Ephesians 4:31)
May the Lord bless u.
Take Care.
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