July 22, 2015

Until Your Heart Stops Beating

Posted in Personal Lyrics, Personal Post tagged , , at 4:36 pm by LynxLee

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We felt so excited to feel you move inside
Smiling, laughing, we’ve filled ourselves with might

Hear that strong heartbeat brings us joy
We’ve even bought you so many toy

See those hands and legs wiggle as we check you on month by month
You’ll have much great fun with your sis as you want

You were a strong one
You were a good girl
You were innocent
You were so active
We loved you just the same

For that reason too, we loved to have to hold you
But life isn’t that easy to begin with
Turns out life isn’t that easy to end as well

To know you’re all intact
To know you’re almost perfect
Then hearing you got an organ shuffle
Almost hard to bear, but we said we will take good care

Next steps showed us life isn’t compatible with you
Such severe words never reached our thoughts too
So it ends where it began again

Tomorrow we will be facing the end
Hoping you’ll be an angel sooner then
Baby baby guess you’ll be in a better place – ascend

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We Do (Love You)

Posted in Lyrics, Personal Lyrics, Personal Post tagged , , at 12:21 pm by LynxLee

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I can’t stop thinking what it’d be like being you
Different and wrongly fixed, feeling red and blue
Knowing we’ve got your life under our control, but we haven’t much the choice
Feeling you’re ready to be alive but you’re silenced by the noise

We hope one day our future show better light
Abortion because of abnormality shouldn’t be right
I could see your future now, it shines dimly with fear
The shame and pain for you sounds way too much to bear

So I tell you now, my apologies to our little girl
We did what could do, but end up in a insane swirl twirl
Often times we wished, hoped, prayed – to be brave
That there’d be a miracle; you’d be normal, good and be saved

Dreaming of those gorgeous face and laughter, we’d long to hear and see
Like our 2 year old here, she’s everything we wish we’d have and be

When we close our eyes, we know you’re actually here
No matter what happened; we declared you, our missing dear
Remember us, we will remember you the same
Everyone’s trying to survive in this crazy game

So please again, dear Lord. We ask for forgiveness through our prayers
We meant her good intentions, living life good through without repairs
If there’s an angel – again, I ask of you to help her
We’ve done all we could to spare everyone’s life in tear

So here’s forgiveness
So here’s to the lives we live to love
So here’s to compassion
For everyday we feel purely thereof

I often wonder again – why must it be? Something
Sometimes I think too much and felt the pain of Nothing
I sincerely think no one else should be hurt from all this void
Be loved and forever normally overjoyed

Then there is the life we live
Then there’s everyone we’re with
Then there’s the emotions we bear
All just because we care

God, Thank you for your blessing
Clearing our minds instead of stressing or guessing

Understood by heart. For it must be true
That with love, we know what can we do
That for love, we know Just what must we do

We do
Love you

July 15, 2015

Ed Sheeran – Small Bump

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post tagged , , at 8:43 am by LynxLee

Life ain’t easy. I told a friend of mine recently that making something takes a lot of effort and time, removing it is easy and quick usually. Of course, this is if you’re thinking like a machine. Blend in emotions and human dynamics, we know that because we took a lot of effort and time – investing our feelings, thoughts, prayers and everything else.. removing isn’t exactly that easy. Sometimes everything happens for a reason and I guess we all won’t know what reason is, but if we take our time to just wonder instead of ponder – soon it will all sink in. We’re doing our best. It’s hard to let go, but it’ll be alright.

giphyAnd I’ll hold you tightly and tell you nothing but truth
If you’re not inside me, I’ll put my future in you

You can wrap your fingers round my thumb
And hold me tight
And you’ll be alright

‘Cos you were just a small bump unborn for four months, then torn from life
Maybe you were needed up there but we’re still unaware as why.

You’re just a small bump unborn in four months you’re brought to life
You might be left with my hair but you’ll have your mother’s eyes
I’ll hold your body in my hands, be as gentle as I can
But for now you’re a scan of my unmade plans
A small bump in four months you brought to lifeAnd I’ll whisper quietly and give you nothing but truth
If you’re not inside me, I’ll put my future in you

You are my one and only
And you can wrap your fingers round my thumb
And hold me tight
You are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb
And hold me tight
And you’ll be alright

You’re just a small bump, I know you’ll grow into your skin
With a smile like hers and a dimple beneath your chin
Fingernails the size of a half grain of rice
And eyelids closed to be soon open wide
A small bump, in four months you’ll open your eyes

And I’ll hold you tightly and tell you nothing but truth
If you’re not inside me, I’ll put my future in you

You are my one and only
And you can wrap your fingers round my thumb
And hold me tight
You are my one and only
And you can wrap your fingers round my thumb
And hold me tight
And you’ll be alright

Then you can lie with me, with your tiny feet
When you’re half asleep I’ll leave you be
Right in front of me, for a couple weeks
So I can keep you safe

‘Cos you are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb
And hold me tight
You are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb
And hold me tight
And you’ll be alright

‘Cos you were just a small bump unborn for four months, then torn from life
Maybe you were needed up there but we’re still unaware as why.

July 9, 2015

Calvin Harris ft. Ellie Goulding – Outside

Posted in Lyrics, Music Video, Personal Post tagged , , , at 7:33 pm by LynxLee

Today I’ve received a revelation of a phone call that completely distort the direction we have been on for the last 20 weeks. Honestly it feels like baring your soul to the weakness in knowing that little info. Everything went so well, then one small thing crop up that eventually led to a minor problem then revealing a major problem. Life is shown to be ending, just like that. Oh the agony of having to make that decision. It’s like, how do you breathe in these situations? We did everything right, now I’m lost in the outside. I’m holding on, I guess I’m not enough for it all. Yet every day I’ll be remembering you. Moving on. Staying still, flowing through.

Calvin-Harris-feat-Ellie-Goulding-Outside-Hardwell-RemixSo, you give me no reason
For me to stay close to you
Tell me what lovers do
How are we still breathing?
It’s never for us to choose
I’ll be the strength in you

Now I’m holding on (I’m holding on)
Myself was never enough for me
Gotta be so strong
There’s a power in what you do
Now every other day I’ll be watching you

I’ll show you what it feels like
Now I’m on the outside
We did everything right
Now I’m on the outside

Look at what you’ve done
Stand still, falling away from me
When it takes so long
Fire’s out, what do you want to be?Now I’m holding on
Myself was never enough for me
Gotta be so strong
There’s a power in what you do
Now every other day I’ll be watching youI’ll show you what it feels like
Now I’m on the outside
We did everything right
Now I’m on the outside
I’ll show you what it feels like
Now I’m on the outside
We did everything right
Now I’m on the outside

So, you give me no reason
For me to stay close to you
Tell me what lovers do
How are we still breathing?
It’s never for us to choose
I’ll be the strength in you

Now I’m holding on (I’m holding on)
Myself was never enough for me
Gotta be so strong
There’s a power in what you do
Now every other day I’ll be watching you

I’ll show you what it feels like
Now I’m on the outside
We did everything right
Now I’m on the outside
I’ll show you what it feels like
Now I’m on the outside
We did everything right
Now I’m on the outside

I’ll show you what it feels like
Now I’m on the outside
I’ll show you what it feels like

I’ll show you what it feels like
Now I’m on the outside
We did everything right
Now I’m on the outside